Unfortunately, I've been seeing disturbing images again.
Too soon... Only 3 months has passed and I'm on the verge of another relapse.
You know it got you bad when you start thinking and believing that it would do people good if you're not around. Maybe it is. Who knows what people really think.
I still can't bring myself to start driving again because I keep having really horrible thoughts that involve words like "rammed", "slammed", "voluntarily", and the likes. I told people I'm scared, but I don't think people really understand what I'm scared of.
I can't even see the rail tracks without imagining stupid things.
I hope this time it won't last long.
I'm trying really hard to steer clear of these thoughts.
Distract me, please?