realization

I came to this realization on why I never really give my best for anything while I was watching a variety show on TV.

It's because if I gave my 100% effort and the outcome is nada/bleh/hampeh, I won't accept it as "takde rezeki".
Instead, I would blame myself 100% for not giving my 101% >_<

If I limit my effort: example of my case would be "I'll read the damn thing thrice and I'll leave the rest to Him", at least I can accept it as fate since I've spent some "energy" ^^

I actually forgot that I'm this kind of person, can you believe that?

It's so damn simple I couldn't understand why I can't think of this sooner.

I guess this is how I function so that I can protect my heart XD