dear, dear jackasses

(￣□￣」)」☆ｏ(＞＜；)○”バカバカバカ！

I definitely have MORE to say to a LOT of people, but I guess this is a part of my "i'll be more patient" training regime; say as little as you can about things that can cause you stupid fucking headache and heartache.

(sorry, Ms RAN pointed out that the F & J buttons on my keyboard are too shiny compared to other letters, so I'll try to spout as many offensive remarks as I can.)

Otomen Ep 01 & 02

Notice that I finally stop using "Item" in my entry's title?

Apparently, I can't count. *shrugs*

Oh well.

Finished watching the first 2 episodes of Otomen.

My, my. 

I thought I was watching an hour long show when it was only like, 35 minutes.

Can't say I hate it though.

But am not loving it either.

The main character is cute and the story does offers us with occasionally funny moments.

(okay, and I think I may have a tiny crush on Masaki Okada - a bonus! haha)

I totally blame the draggy pace on the directing and editing :P 
It will prolly take a while before I can bring myself to move on to episode 3.

-ma favorite scene in episode 1-  

+ this is when Asuka was all ready to sew a torn teddy bear (since his mother's away, or else she'll have a fit watching Asuka doing something she deems as "girly"), when his mother suddenly called and he lets the machine answer. His mother went like "ha, I can see you I know you're playing with plushies you're getting ready to sew and knit ain't you stop looking for hidden cameras........... haha I know you wouldn't do something like that my son is a manly guy". The look on his face's priceless ROFLMAO. +

Item 26

From Tokyograph.

Kotaro Koizumi (31) and Saki Fukuda (19) are co-starring in a new mobile drama titled "Himitsu no Kankei ~Sensei wa Doukyonin~," starting distribution on July 1 through BeeTV.


Described as a love comedy, the story has Fukuda playing a high school student whose parents die, leaving her with no other relatives. She begins living with her homeroom teacher (Koizumi), leading to an odd lifestyle for both of them.

Geh.

The setting sounds like Meca Tanaka's Kiss yori mo Hayaku.

Okay, except for the marriage part, obviously.

Hope someone will upload the raw once it's available tho.

Coz I do have a soft spot for Fukuda and Koizumi :)

Item 25

 dalam benakku, lama tertanam
sejuta bayangan dirimu

Selalunya... kalau lelaki dan perempuan mengaku sahabat baik, salah seorang mesti akan ‘tergelincir’ – terlebih suka!

“Tak apalah, adik dah ada pilihan sendiri."
“Siapa? Pacai?” balas mak, sarkastik. Pacai tu teman serumah, sahabat dunia akhirat.
“Kalau Pacai tu perempuan, dah lama mak suruh kau orang berdua kahwin.”
Tawa Adil pecah.
“Anak Cik Fizah...” kata mak lagi.
“Makkk...” Adil mula memprotes, “Nanti adik pandai la cari sendiri. Mak jangan nak memandai apa-apa.”
“Iya... tapi kalau sampai tahun depan tak ada bayang-bayang lagi...?” ugut mak.

Hatinya sudah terlanjur ‘tergelincir’ pada Teja Aulia, biarpun mereka sudah tidak bertegur sapa 

II

Dan hati Teja Aulia penuh berbunga daisi apabila Adil melambai tadi. Namun rasa itu ‘dihibakan’ apabila Adil guna kata ganti diri ‘saya’. Jadi pada Adil, dia bukanlah Aulia yang dulu?

Adil hanya akan sebut ‘saya’ pada perempuan yang dia ‘tak berapa kenal’; ‘tak berapa biasa’; ‘tak berapa sayang’. Dan dia sudah termasuk dalam kategori itu!

Nampaknya hubungan dia dengan Adil sudah tidak ada bunga-bunga untuk pulih lagi 

* * * *

SYUD menulis ceritanya seperti ‘melukis’. Tulisannya berwarna-warni bak pelangi. Susuri persahabatan bertukar cinta dalam Untuk Awak Teja Aulia. Tentulah karya SYUD ini sebuah ‘lukisan’ yang cantik sekali!

*****

ISBN: 978-967-5118-35-7
Harga: RM20.00 (Sem. M'sia)/RM23.00 (Sabah/Sarawak)
Harga pembelian melalui pos/pesanan online: RM18.00 (mulai 5 Julai 2010)
* Mulai dijual di Pesta Buku Selangor pada 25 Jun ~ 5 Julai 2010.

Just received this synopsis via my email from Jemari Seni.

Waiiii~~~~

Tak sabarnye nak tunggu Julai.

Takpe Kak Syud, cerita mana yang tak cliche?

Yang penting cara penulis execute cerita.

Kan kan kan :)

Item 24

Hmm.

Cakap pasal IPTA.

Jujur aku cakap, kenapa majoriti yang tak dapat tu act macam IPTA tu segala-galanya?

Sure, the fees are cheaper. 

FYI, majoriti dak yang blaja kat IPTS tu anak orang biasa jek. 

Bebeh, what's the use of PTPTPU? 

At least you'll appreciate and work harder coz u know u're the one who's paying lots of money for ur studies. 

Se lagi, just because it's IPTA, tak bermakna mende yg diajar kat IPTA tu sangat curlast and IPTS pulak hina silibus dier. 

Maybe orang akan kate aku dengki sebab aku tak dapat IPTA (hey, I'm the one who choose to stop school/doing my dip. who knows where i would be today if i were to continue - haa, kan da riak lagi takbur seketika kekeke XD), tapi ada jek orang sekeliling aku kat UNiSEL tu yang terlebih layak masuk IPTA, tapi dorang datang UNiSEL atas kehendak sendiri.

Contoh? My ex-housemate. Grad dip engi poli. And all of us know that poli's grads senang giler nak dapat tempat kat IPTA.

My one and only roommate - dapat gak UiTM n USM if i'm not mistaken, tapi last2 masuk IPTS jugak.

Mende2 ni sebenarnye atas diri sendiri jek.

I notice that some people punye mentaliti memang narrow giler.

Se lagi masalahnye adelah kebanyakan orang just nampak satu jalan jek, minda tak tercapai nak tengok kat arah lain.

Critical thinking aku takdela bagus, tapi at least aku reti jugak la nak compare n contrast n buat my own judgment.

Do some research. 

It's not that hard with today's tech.

Sure, tak salah mengharap untuk keputusan rayuan.

And boy u're so wrong to say that pengambilan ujung tahun tak brapa kompetitif tu.

So so wrong.

Tapi kan, apelah salahnye sekiranye sambil2 tunggu keputusan rayuan tu, buat backup plan dengan cari tempat lain untuk study (kalau still ada rasa nak stadi la, if not, up to u).

It's not that I'm saying that you'll failed to attain the place, it's just that one have to be prepared for this thing u know.

Let me say this, kalau macam kat UNiSEL, you only need to either work and save about 2k (or ask from family, of course), and after that you can make do with the amount u receive from PTPTPU (not applicable for engi students tho, their fees are too high XD).

My housemate is like that. 

Setiap kali cuti semester dier akan kerja untuk kumpul duit untuk survive sampai PTPTPU masuk.

Dier belajar, makan minum semua sepanjang satu sem semua dier guna PTPTPU pastu.

Tapi kalau anda jenis yang suke nak tukar henpon/laptop/beli basikal mahal/bawak transport pastu member tumpang tak pernah bayo minyak/shopping baju, kasut, henbeg memanjang/nak makan sedap sokmo, memang takleh nak buat la kan.

Ok, ni aku tak tuju khas kat sesape.

Just my feeling after reading countless comments by my acquaintances @ FB.

To be frank, I have no idea how many of my oh, well, used-to-be good friends got into USM/other IPTAs.

Coz the ones I bothered enough to ask didn't even reply.

Ah, what a sad, pathetic life I'm having eh? haha :P

Oh well. I'll stop here.

Harap takde yang terasa hati, jantung, 
maupun paru-paru dengan entri ini. ( ｡･_･｡)人(｡･_･｡ )

Just my honest opinion based on my own experience.
And I sincerely pray for you guys happiness, and happiness is subjective ne :)

P.S. I did apply for UPU using my STPM, but no luck. So don't even dare to say that I don't understand how you guys are feeling.

Sekian.
＼（－－）／

Item 23

A~ah.
Baru dapat online hari ni.

TMNUT SCREAMYX ampeh!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrr...
Dah lah.
Iols nak pi baca latest chapter untuk Skip Beat *sighs*

Item 22

It's been a long time (3 years to be exact) since I discover a good title of manga.

The only one I faithfully follow is Skip Beat, and that because I LOVE Yoshiki Nakamura's works.

Recently, I decided to give Kimi ni Todoke a try, and I'm glad I did.

Kimitodo is a very sweet story that makes you want to be 16 again (well, in my case, 12 maybe? haha)

While I'm at Kimitodo, I just randomly updated my old collection of Ouran Koukou Host Club & Kiss yori mo Hayaku.

I realized that I've missed too many progresses T_T

Tamaki & Haruhi's getting cuter (although still dense as ever), and Ma-kun is still kakkoii as ever keke. 

Oh oh, and guess what, I've added few more shoujo manga titles to my collection.

I did try my best to avoid those with elements of yaoi/yuri/smut/etc (I might've taken some liberty with Hapi Mari & Private Prince tho wahahahah :P)

Oh well, I'm off to read Kaichou wa Maid-sama :)

Item 21

Recently I was hit with shocking news concerning my friends.

The first one.
A friend from KPMIM years whose blog I followed and whose situation I am aware of, lost her mother.

The poor girl, she has to face endless big trials of life.

I sincerely pray for the light to dawn upon her at the end of her dark-filled path she was forced to journey within.

The second one.

One of my dearest friends was involved in a car accident.

Apparently, she, the designated driver suffered the less physical pain (but most psychological one) among the passengers.

Her sister's still in the hospital and she's scheduled to undergo another operation.

This Author meanwhile, was in a total shock because this happened a week ago and I have no idea that I almost lose my friend.

This prompts me to ask myself, what should I do if I really lose someone who's dear to me?

How should I react?

What kind of thing I could've done to make the pain bearable?

Should I just distance myself before I become too attach to someone?

But if I do that, isn't that the path of a coward?

Am I a coward?

If I'm a coward, I would've abandon many things already and go wildly in pursuit of nothingness, no?

Actually there are more.

I just don't have the energy to write :|

I guess people can get the gist of it, eh?

Anyway,

When I reflect upon this matter, I realize that I'm capable of swallowing my pride repeatedly just to save relationships from being stomped to pieces.

And then I question myself, is it worth it?

Why in the world I want to keep being hurt for?

After I mulled over it for some time, I think I finally understand the reason.

I guess if you feel no pain, then that means one's not that into it. And when one's not into it, it's not worth to sacrifice your pride for.

I know I know.

I'm the world's biggest fool for only figuring this out now.

I believe my next quest will be this one -

to figure out my little sister.

And all this time I thought, "Now that my steps are positive ones, she'll continue to follow those steps."

A big NO I guess.

Another worm that I can't get rid of.

Post script - Entries after this will be about stuff I've read/watched. Promise!

Item 20

Kadang-kadang rasa macam menyesal pegi gatal apply kos berkait dengan psikologi.

Walaupun penulis bukanlah psychologist berjaya berbaju pink, tapi sikit-sikit boleh interpret jugaklah kan tingkah laku manusia ni.

*Tukar gear 4*

I mean WTF. Nak coverline pun agak2la weh.

Ko nampak tak ayat aku tu sangat obvious point out kat ko ape mistake ko yang give ko away.

Tapi ko boleh play along pulak, prolly thinking that I fell for your stupid reasoning.

Ko ingat aku bodo sangat ke? Ko ingat aku senyap jadi ko assume aku tatau pape eh?

Kalau aku tak faham kenapa ko buat camtu memang sia-sia la mak pak aku abehkan duit anto aku blaja psikologi hokkay.

A~ah, jelek sesangat dengan cara ko yang hipo tahap ke berape aku pun tatau.

To think that I used to back you up in front of others before.... *sighs*

Takpela, kalau ko nak jadi dewi hipo, aku pun bole jadi ratu hipo jugak.

2 can play that game baby.

I'm on.

*Masuk gear P*

Topik lain.

Sekarang rasa macam otak dah tak berfungsi macam dulu.

Jadi absent-minded giler.

Dengan jadi makin susah nak ingat mende.

Memorizing things used to be so easy for me.

Sekarang rasa terseksa jiwa nak mengingat.

Orang lain kena baca sekali, penulis kena fokus sikit2 & baca mende yang sikit tu puluh2 kali baru bole ingat.

Terasa macam dah tua giler dowh.

Item 19

I was going to write about Julia Quinn's 10 Things I Love About You (love it!) & Mao-chan's Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu (sappy love story) just now.

But then when I log into my FB account (the only intention I have when I did so was to click "Like" for King/Queen of Procrastination page XD), I saw Mr. LMY's status announcing that the result for last semester's examination is out.

Thus, with my head pounding heavily I feel like someone hit me with a hammer repeatedly, I went to check on mine.

Syukur Alhamdulillah, everything's fine and dandy.

Don't have to repeat any subject yeay~

Anyway, I think I need to summon the mood to reply emails and messages from my friends soon.

I've been quiet for weeks and I feel guilty for not being able to get back to them.

I have no idea why, but this time, long semester break makes me grumpy and unhappy. *sighs*

Item 18

Been spending the last 2 days watching Atashinchi no Danshi.

Funny how it seems that the story works so much better if you watch it without anticipating anything.

When Atashinchi no Danshi ran last year, it was during this "ikemen" / "kkotnamja" boom and I was sick of watching series that were graced with too many good looking guys.

I'm in a different condition nowadays anyway.

I CRAVE for those ikemens :P

On the plot.

It's about this girl, Chisato who is homeless and being chased by loan sharks.

The guy who we all believe is her father, left the girl to fend for herself AND to pay for his 100 million yen debt.

Luckily, Chisato has this ability to influence people, particularly guys.

Thus, she has this group of self-proclaimed "Chisato's bodyguards" willing to run at her beck and call. (o-kie, that doesn't sounds right. But WTH eh)

So one day, while she's trying to run away from the sharks, a good looking old guy with horrendous fashion sense suddenly appear and saves her by paying the debt in full.

However, there's a condition, she has to marry him for a month or she'll have to pay 100 million to him, ASAP.

Oh, did I mention that that good looking old guy, Shinzo Okura, has 6 good looking adopted sons? (one's a minor, but still, he's cute)

She found out later that Shinzo tricked her; there are more things that has to be done before her 100 million yen debt is fully paid.

And Chisato's quest to fulfill the terms of the contract begins...

Brief review by yours truly.

Its wackiness kinda reminds me of Hana Kimi (The Japanese version, of course. These 2 share the same writer).

Those random scenes with the guys in the sauna were probably done as a fan service.

I mean what excuse do we have to NOT ogle pretty guys in skimpy towels? *sigh*

I like the twist where they revealed Chisato's real identity at the end.

That was nice, although the writer could have work more on the background story.

The acting by the cast need more work too.

Maki-chan's expressions' so limited that I have trouble dissecting what kind of emotions she's trying to convey.

Osamu Mukai - work more on your eyes dude. Your comic timing is good by the way.

Yoshinori Okada - overall, he's cool. People should give him more major roles.

Yusuke Yamamoto - it's hard to erase that image from Hana Kimi that he's imprinted on our memories (that's my own fault I guess? :P), but good effort anyway (especially in early episodes)

Koji Seto - this kid has big potential.

Jun Kaname - too bad this guy usually have a limited on-screen appearance. He's good in comedies.

Tomoki Okayama - aa, if you want me to compare the boy with child actors from Korea, he has a longggg way to go.
Koji Yamamoto - he rocks! He totally pwned the show!
In fact, I feel like AtaDan is more about Koji Yamamoto's Toki-chan, not Chisato.
Reiko Takashima - Thank God for bringing her into the picture, she's great (and so pretty!).

In a nutshell, if you're looking for something light and laugh-inducing, AtaDan is the answer to your prayer.

If you want something that meets your logic, go find something else.